Sunday night was a hard night. I suppose there comes a time when a person simply grows weary of being strong, weary of waiting and wondering and worrying, weary of being scared... you just break down when the light at the end of your tunnel seems to keep moving further and further away. But that's the time when you have to lay your burdens on the Lord and let him carry you the rest of the way; to those greener pastures that you long for so much. I know we're going to get though this. Richie's constantly saying "It's going to be ok!" I don't know what I'd do without him....or my wonderful parents and sisters and brothers, or my sweet adopted family Janet and Rich who are there for us all the time, or my church family and friends who have been so supportive! So much family, you'd wonder why I ever get discouraged! You are all wonderful, we love you so much.
The tears started flowing again tonight as I read the end of this passage from 1 Peter 5:
6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 11 To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.
Amen, Amen, Amen.
Today has been a busy day. Up at 4:30, in Seattle by 8:30, Richie had a blood draw, a CT scan, and then a meeting with the doctor to go over the results. The CT scan showed NO SPOTS on the lungs!!!!! That was wonderful news. The only other tumor is the one on/near the kidney, and right now the tentative plan is to surgically remove whats left of it after Richie has recovered from this last chemo.
Finally, please pray for us! Poor Richie started getting pretty severe nausea even before they started the chemo. In fact, it's 7pm and they STILL haven't started the chemo. We're way behind schedule! Anyhow, we're not sure if the nausea is caused by all the terrible contrast dye Richie had to drink before the CT scan, or if it's just the thought of the chemo that does it to him. (They call it "anticipatory" nausea.) At home, even the thought of the hospital makes him nauseous sometimes. Poor thing. We're so anxious for this all to be but a very. distant. memory.
THANK YOU Janet Foss for the wonderful beautiful flowers and vases you gave for our room. They are BEAUTIFUL! Those bright salmon pink colors are one of my favorites! THANK YOU Mommy and Janet for decorating our room so nicely! And THANK YOU Linda Clements for the beautiful little pillow you made! We love it!